happily ever after

Yuck. We have been sick for what seems like FOREVER. On New Years eve it has been week after week of something. Yesterday Chloe had been complaining of ear pain. So I took her in, and yep an ear infection. I was glad that there is medicine and we could head home. After naptime, Miss Lil woke up just cranky. Crying, fever, throwing fits, it was miserable for her. So we packed our stuff and headed back to the pediatrician's office. Poor girl has a double ear infection. I felt so bad, you could feel how sick she felt. So again thankful for medicine. She went to bed for a few hours and woke up and her breathing was very rapid and short. I tried to brush it off, but it didn't seem to get better. I called the triage nurse, which I think they honestly tell you the WORST possible scenerios and freak you out. I get that they have to, but it was a call I didn't need to make. So I start pacing around the house. Meanwhile B sleeps peacefully, and Lily is playing. Yes, the little thing was clapping, running and playing. I felt better about not taking her in, but everytime she would sit still I would notice it. So I made a choice to take her in. B stayed home so that Chloe could sleep. I got in the car, glasses and no make up :) and called my mom. Instantly I started bawling. Something about talking to my mom takes me back to being a five year old and needing her. I am so lucky, she offered to meet me there so I didn't have to do it alone. We checked in, and taking her temp was enough to send me back into tears. Got into the room, and again sobbing. Lily even reached up with a kleenex to wipe my eyes. sweet girl. After about two hours we met with a doc, who said her lower lungs were good, but he thinks it is the onset of rsv. He said that since this is the third day of her cold that hopefully last night was the worst. He discharged her and we made it in the door at 2 am. She was fast asleep by 2:05. Just exhausted. Poor thing, I stayed up until about 330 listening to her breathe on the monitor. I think that a mom's job is the TOUGHEST job around. I kept telling my mom, how I felt like such a child because I couldn't be strong enough to not cry there, and that no one prepares you for the emotions that you will feel. I love my children and I wouldn't know how to live if something went wrong. I am Thankful that Lily is okay and I am Grateful that I have a mom that is so caring. I would have been a basket case without her. xoxo