happily ever after

       I've had some really hard talks with myself lately. So it's weird, I work out, I get compliments. Should feel amazing right???? Well now I know that I am hardly a supermodel ( although my walk is damn near perfect) but I have lost some weight. However I look in the mirror and I still see someone who looks like they did last year. My mind and eyes have not caught up. I bought my first pair of jeans that are the same size as the year I got married. It's been about six years since I was able to wear this size. Inside I was bursting with happiness, but I kept thinking, well how the hell do these actually fit when I look the same? It's the weirdest game that I am playing with myself.  I do know that if I don't then it'll never be good enough.  I get embarrased when people ask me what I have been doing, or tell me I look different. Isn't that ridiculous?
        So I am making up my mind, to be accepting of myself. I am going to accept that I have changed, and that it is okay for others to notice. I will begin by telling myself this daily. I keep a quote on my mirror and it pushes me to keep going. There are so many times that I just don't want to go to the gym. But I put my shoes on, and I go. It is awesome how I feel when I am done. I feel like I am showing my girls that they can too be empowering. Teaching them self esteem is something that I have to do, it's my job. So I better start loving who I am becoming so that others can too. xoxo