Blah Blah Blah. That's how I feel about today. Sucky day with rain and cranky kids. Then as I felt like I couldn't handle anymore, my husband decides he should also be a FABULOUS person to be around. Really?!? Our biggest issue is discipline. We just don't agree. He thinks I am a push over, and I think he has no patience. So we butt heads, and unfortunately we do it in front of our kids. I try Really, Really hard not to but it happens. Heat of the moment and I can't bite my tongue. I want him to defend me to our four year old, but when he is in his moment, I cave and instantly want to protect her. I jump in, and try to defuse the situation. It sucks. And the worst part is, she knows what is going on and she plays both sides. So no one wins. We all walk away exhausted and frustrated. I could probably cry when I see the clock says 8, because that means bedtime and I know that someone will yell, someone will cry, and someone will slam a door and it isn't always Chloe. The poor thing, I try so hard to give her some control. I let her pick things, but it never fails that ten minutes after she is put in bed, something is wrong. She's hungry, or needs to go to the bathroom, or wants to tell us something. I usually give her two chances, then after that the door gets locked. Am I mean??? Really, I do give her some chances, but after a full day, I need a few moments of me time. The thing that just makes me sick is that she usually will get up, try to open her door. Start screaming and then continue to kick or scream for a few moments. Then when it is all quiet she tucks herself in and after an hour or so I go check on her and kiss her sweet little face. Why can't we just do that from the start??? I want the last thing before she goes to bed to be peaceful and to be happy but lately it just isn't. Now, we have a date. March 21. We are attending a parenting class TOGETHER. Thank goodness. I swear, we are both counting down the days. We need to find a common ground, we need to find our way together and make this work. Otherwise I forsee a lot of struggle with teenagers.
Just needed to get that out. phew. Glad tomorrow is a new day. xoxo
3 comments:
:o{ I'm sorry friend...
Hopfully the parenting class will really help you & Brandon get on the same page as far as discipline. I think that will make a WORLD of a difference.
{{{HUGS}}}
I agree with Jacki. And....do I need a lock on the door tonight with Chloe? I don't know how I feel about her crawling in my bed hahaha jk. At least Steve isn't here tonight, just us girls. We are gonna have so much fun!
parenting is so hard.
and it's not always easy to be on the same page with your spouse. i try to remember that we're alwyas on the same team though...and always try to support dylan(even when he's wrong) :)
i think it's wonderful that you signed up for a parenting class. i need that!
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