happily ever after

No one ever said that it would be easy, no one ever said that every day would be happy. Today is a day that should be brimming with love and happiness and for me all I can do is glare at the one that is supposed to be my valentine. After eleven valentines I guess that is okay. We have this beautiful three year old who is so full of life, but she is also full of spice, spice, spice. I love her with everything that I have but I think that she has found a way to make us crazy. Hoping that I am not alone in this battle of the three year old, the sweet little angel that used to coo and giggle has turned into a screaming, crying, whining child. I miss my little one who would snuggle on the couch and tell me I am her favorite. She actually now tells me that I am a bad mommy.... ouch.... Must I first say Sorry to my mom for everything mean I ever said. This is the ultimate pay back. So I sit here, exhausted, head pounding and I can't muster even a little smile. Then I look outside and see my beautiful three year old running around the yard and I found my smile again. Momma said there would be days like these, and she's right there are. But there is also something comforting about a child. They can't understand everything, and they need us to help them through. I am very blessed to have both of these amazing girls and I know that one day, they too will blog about how crazy their kids make them and even then I will smile.




On another note, its been six long years since my amazing grandma passed away. Six years ago I left the hospital a wreck, an emotional time bomb. She's the only grandparent that I have ever met, she was the most special, god loving women that I have ever known. She was the reason that I made so many decisions in my life, she meant so much to me. Now I have always heard that time heals everything, but thats so not true. I miss her today just as much as I did six years ago. The comfort that I have lays in the fact that I believe she is with our Father, and that she is no longer suffering. She is dancing with my grandpa and they are rejoicing at His feet. She is able to eat whatever, she has no limitations, and she is happy, healthy and exactly where she wanted to be. Thank you Lord for giving me the faith to know what your Glory truly means, thank you for giving me the patience that I need to understand, and thank you Lord for giving me twenty amazing years with my grandma. They were too short in my opinion but they were full.

Hope that you all have an amazing day, remember that it isn't always about the hearts and candy. It is about being with those that mean that most to you, those who would give their all for you. Remember to Trust in Him, and to smile. Don't worry I will remind myself today to do that often :) xoxo