As of today I must say that I enjoy being pregnant, wait.... did I truly just say that :) So Chloe's pregnancy was soooo different. I was so swollen and so huge that I hated every moment. This lil one's isn't as bad. Truthfully the beginning was worse, but the end is chalking up to be so much better. I am hardly swollen, thank goodness and I am loving feeling her move everywhere. And she does, especially at 5:00 am. I am reminded that this will probably be the hour that I will be awoken every day after she arrives. I think too that since I realize this is my last pregnancy that I will miss feeling her move and watching my belly grow.
It still amazes me that we are able to do this, and as women I am thankful that I get to be the one that does. The sacrifice is minimal in comparison to what the child can bring.
Chloe is my best friend, and I have so much fun watching her grow. I love driving and peeking at her through the rear view mirror. She usually is so quiet and stares out the windows, or sings at the top of her lungs. What a sight. I can hardly believe that 3 years ago she came into our lives. What did I ever do before her? We must have been so boring :)
I am so excited for her to meet her little sister, but I do have some fears. Which I am sure are very normal, but I worry that she will feel unloved by me, or that she will resent her sister because she is taking up our time. Is this preventable? Brandon has been spending extra time with her because we know that after she is born, they will be together quite a bit. But I don't want to lose the bond that I have with her. I know that it will be hard but I am just hoping that she adapts well. So I will admit it that I will be sad when this pregnancy is over, but I can't hardly wait to meet our newest angel. Who Chloe has dubbed "Goose". Goosey Gross, what a name :) xoxo
3 comments:
I can't thank you enough for your last comment on my blog! i was freakin out yesterday cuz I was having cramping (which could still be a problem but I'm not letting myself think it is) because I took 2 fiber bars!!! you said that it made you cramp so I'm hoping that is what it was. OMG with this whole constipated thing this is ridiculous!!!!haha to much info;)
aaahhh friend. Your feelings are totally normal. I felt so so guilty when I was preggo with Kole. There were countless times where I thought, 'how could I do this to Allie?' The thing is, kids adjust. It may not happen right away but they do. You will always have a special place in your heart for Chloe since she was your first but that doesnt mean that you will love your next any more or less. Chloe will have a special bond & friendship with her sister and that is a true gift that you are giving her. And I bet after time, you will barely remember what life was like with just one child. Things will turn our fine, friend. I promise! :o)
So I am totally jealous . . . I did feel a little better with Ava . . . but I still did not enjoy pregnancy except what you said about the amazement of watching your belly grow and feeling the little one roll around in there. Having a second was a huge change for us . . . I couldn't believe the difference with EVERYTHING. But I am still so blessed to have have to wonderful and beautiful girls that are all mine. =) Miss you friend!
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